The Officers

For some people the evening is a good time to rest. Remove the load after a day occupied with various activities. Many people want to sleep as long and as comfortable as possible, simply remove the burden of the conscious mind even though it applies only for a moment. Because when I woke up, the various problems of living is waiting. But not for me, sleep becomes scary lately. When night comes, comes a strong desire within myself to not sleep a wink.
For many months the desire to sleep is not entrenched in the mind. Although this is considered by some as something that happened to fair officials like myself, who returned to run for local elections. I can not simply accept the assumptions of such filthy. Many times I tried to look at what seems to be the cause of this, but so far to no avail.
Berwaktu-time problems that increasingly flourish, winding itself, does not even give me half a chance to escape from him. Never dawned on the mind to see a doctor, but I quickly throw away that thought. I've removed the reliance on doctors, police, judges or anyone else who feels needed people because of those fears. But that does not mean I do not appreciate their position, I just want to say that tomorrow I can actually like them. Sok calm, self can overcome the problem although it should be up bald head, a great ass but not a lot of ability, quasi not need anyone else, tomorrow a leader, pretentious official title even though it was deposited from the people, pretentious rich treasure, though I realize it's just the deposit only. The point is people like me are free to any quasi.
I've been standing on the corner of my room facing the mirror. I noticed my whole body in the mirror that was always brilliant. No change in the slightest, I smiled with satisfaction. But, I have not had my hair straightened. Something happened on the mirror. I'm surprised is not absurdly, I saw that the mirror was not there myself. Oath died I was very surprised.
"Who are you? "
"I do, what you forgot"
The figure was smiling grinning mirror, very scary. Dark skin, red eyes, just weird. Only just exactly the same clothes that I wear.
"What are you?"
"Nothing. You know what you're doing. You know why you like now? ".
I kept looking at the figure of mirror. My eyes are like hypnotized to continue viewing. Of course I'm upset with all this. I'm anxious to figure cursed mirror.
"You know what would you do?"
Of course I know. Basic strange. It's from a few months ago I expose myself to make it more known to the public. Without any real promotion everyone already knew me. It's just that I wanted to get closer and so I better understood the community. Candidates for such officials must be very clever I stole people's hearts. I am increasingly irritated by the presence dihadapanku figure.
"It seems that your intention should be repaired"
"That!"
"You know ..."
"Hey ...!"
I have not had time to continue those words, lightning-fast figure vanished leaving smiles strangely. The figure was replaced by my own shadow. I realized from the hypnotic effect of this mirror image.
I ran to the bed, bent his body half-circle and then close the head with a blanket. Fear and sleep in one, but I continue to try to fight it. Outside, the hustle and bustle of the streets making noise ears. While the more severe the head only. Somehow I kept trying to stay awake. I want to escape from fear, from a bad dream, beautiful dream, nightmare or dream anything that was always there when I fell asleep.
As much as any business, I'm still human. Have limited physical strength. I lost scent beds, mattresses and pillows dilelapkan soft and warm blanket. The next moment the scene the night that I feared, was not avoidable. I was in another room, the space limit of consciousness. I just wanted to let all the heavy burden I carry, something that ruined everything.
I was in a group of people. They were the first pekerjaku. Every day from morning until night fell, they were always loyal to my service. They were dutiful and obedient to run what I assign to them. But now everything changed, they no longer recognize me. I've been generous to greet them first, when before I had never done all that. But still they did not know me, let alone not even say hello glance.
Not only that, I even banned from the room to where I think the work. I tried menerebos entrance, but security officers quickly dragged out swiftly.
"Do not screw up here, go!"
I was thrown by a security guard, when before they were obedient and respectful to me. I'm surprised with all these events, do not fit the scenario that I make. Hinanyakah so myself, or had run the country's culture, to respect was no longer there. So what kind of country is only natural that when a variety of depravity in this country thrives. I grumbled to myself.
I do not accept what happened to me. I rebelled and blasphemous uncontrollably. I'd love to beat up two men with my hand, but I have not had time to do a sudden pain that very sick taste in my body. My head hit the bed iron bed. I awake from the nightmare.
Want to throw out all the pain and disappointment as he realized that dream again I'm stuck. But though I tried a half-dead, a strange feeling when your mind is still biting and delusion can no longer deceive me. Restrain anger, the more I do not want to sleep. I want to hear anything outside of myself, my wife heard the sound, the sound Ijah servant, anyway, I want to stay awake.
In another corner of my room, I grabbed a cup of coffee at the table who had been made Ijah. Gulp down my coffee, my tongue-snapped berdecap lost sense of pleasure because corn is too strong of coffee powder not branded. Ijah call me, he can only answer when I asked haltingly prihal corn coffee.
"The usual discharged, sir! She said a little learning frugal, later if the father is not in use, has been ordinary. "
"Uh ... you think I am"
Pelototi my maid suddenly dared underestimate me. Though he had not dared to do it.
Ijah away in fear. A moment later I realized that just stayed Ijah who now have to be afraid of my anger. He had scared me, because I pay him. But at least I can still feel the fear of people around me, even though it was just Ijah.
All voice near me vanished. No sound of my wife, Ijah no sound, no more noise, no nobody, no nothing. Frozen world outside myself, I slowly peeled off. Just haunting echoes of the people, emerge and disappear among the local election news. Until the last sentence there is almost no supporters, arrived - I felt has turned into an insect, a small creature that does not need consciousness to understand life.
I do not know, whether or not I feel happy when I'm asleep or awake. Both are no different to me. I feel how those bare feet trample head. Same as I ever did, when I had the opportunity to trample on other people. Asleep or awake, not unlike me in jail. A new awareness I can understand when things happened, all that is sooner or later the world will leave us.
For a moment I thought, what is meant my awareness of this. It was quite late, even very late. I have failed to make my own life. I shouted, menghiba, rebelled hard. I have not received the wheel of life which now melindasku. Why so fast all I have to leave me.
"Let's hold a strong hand"
"Disconnect"
"Rapid injection tranquilizers"
Both men meringkusku doctor immediately. Two sedative injections weaken the muscles in my body, then I do not know anymore. Until I wake again, tepatku living room is still like the original, painted white, one-third the size of my bedroom, surrounded by a fence of iron bars. I'm tired of being here, I like a toothless tiger. Life here does not yield anything. No one cares anymore in my life. Therefore I need a friend, colleague or whatever his name. I want to share stories about the struggles of life. If you want to meet people like me, you can meet me at sal jasmine. More precisely Mental Hospital logic in the way of meaning in my life. I'm waiting, do not forget ya. (by F.R Sudarja)

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Maternal love

Raining hard. A mother carrying her baby away amid the rain. Soon after the baby fever. The mother felt kebinggungan, not knowing what she should do.

Because of confused what to do, the mother brought her son to the monastery where he used to worship.

It was night, the door has been closed monasteries. With the instinct to protect her child, she knocked on the door of the monastery all his strength, hoping no one answered the door and help his son.

Shortly after hearing a knock, opened by a priest pintupun sharp-nosed and fair-complexioned. What a surprise the preacher when he saw a woman with a pale face in the rain, holding a crying baby with a fever. Soon the pastor, invited the mother was inside.

Without further ado, the mother asked the priest to help her son. With a sincere smile, the pastor took the baby from the mother's arms and told members of the monastery to take care of the baby and mother served.

Babies were put into a room to be examined. The mother waited outside with great concern.

Not long later a priest came out of the room and told the mother that her baby was only ordinary fever. The mother was relieved to hear that, but he immediately wanted to meet with his beloved.

Without preamble and questions, he barged into the room. How shocked he was when entered into the room. It turns out there was only inside the altar and her baby who was lying right in front of the altar.

She came into the room to take her baby, but to my surprise, he was not scared at all. The room seemed to radiate peace and solitude. Although the outside was heavy rain, but the rain did not sound that all subjects.

He approached the altar and her baby who had fallen asleep. When going out, the mother dipekakan by a very bright light for a moment.

Then the light was gone, instantly the mother still can not see clearly. Gradually she adjusts her eyes and can see clearly again. How shocked she was when she saw a man with a golden robe was standing right in front. The mother was confused, because he did not see him as he entered the room.

For a moment the mother is not able to move and not say anything. Like being hypnotized, she did not feel anything, other than silence.

Suddenly the silence was broken by the words that came out of the mouths of people dressed in gold.

"Mom, what is the child's mother? Looks very beautiful and sweet "

"This is my child ...." A mother's spontaneous

"Is mother love him?"

"Of course, I loved her more than anything"

"Does the mother want the child's mother happy?"

"Of course, I'll do anything for my child happy"

"Even should let him go?" Asked the priest.

"Why should I remove it? He is my son "mom said as she walked away.

The mother stepped out of the room. But suddenly he stopped because of a sudden the room was transformed into a space that is all around the mirror. And the mirror, she saw a mother who was holding a baby. However, he does not recognize these mothers.

The mother tried to get out of the room, but for some reason he can not reach the exit which is near the invisible visible. He tried to walk faster, but useless, because he still can not reach the door.

Not discouraged, he decided to try running, but pecuma course, he still could not be reached for the door.

He kept running until she was tired, and then watched around him. He saw along the way and the room made of mirrors, and he also saw a mother whose baby mengendong.

The mother then returned to try to walk, but still only useless, only this time he found a gaffe. He realizes that there mirror those mothers who, following all the movements and actions of these mothers.

Eventually he realized that people who are mirror is himself. He was getting confused with what happened.

Suddenly there was a cry of agony, a cry of loss. But he did not see one there, besides the baby in the mirror throughout the room.

But strangely it made him cry cry. He saw no mirror mother was crying. Not long after the baby is crying too.
Suddenly a voice was crying as if broken by a voice ...

"Do you bear to see someone else and your child grieve? Why do not you relakan your child? He'd be happier if nurtured by people who loved him, they Deliver! "Said the golden robe that had been met.

Amid such a sense of melancholy, the mother understood that it was time for her to release her son. With sobs and tears, he let his son severely. He put his son in front of the altar and then separating the body and soul.

When separated, she returned to see the mirror, and he saw two mothers, namely himself and a mother who was lying unconscious. With full of tears, he knew that he was not able to reunite with their children who have different world. But the great affection that has overcome her selfishness.

"Nothing is eternal, everything will be back at home. Do not cry for separation, but happy because you've had time to be married, "said the robed in gold.

"I'm not crying because the separation but I am crying because I have overcome my selfishness that will cause my child, these mothers and their families"

The mother died while giving birth children, but because he was not willing to release his son, he was taken possession of the other mothers. At that time two mothers gave birth center. One of the two mothers died while giving birth. While a longer, her baby can not be saved, because the baby was born premature. Mothers whose babies died, was very devastated, unable to accept the harsh reality that her baby died. While he was at the time, also do not want to accept reality because he wanted to treat her own child.

Spirit of the mother who died was entered into the body of the mother whose baby died, then ran from the hospital, took away her baby. The incident was made confused the hospital and the two families concerned.

The mother was very forward to welcoming the baby, because her son would become his friend through life. Because she had lost her parents long ago, so it is with her husband who died when she was pregnant.

It's a tragic story, but this is the love of a mother towards her child. Even though the animals will love to their children, as well as every mother's affection towards her child.

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Surrender to Jesus

Jesus greets me

Okran .....
look in the mirror and see !!

I am the Lord, today I'll handle all your problems.
I do not need your assistance.
So, best wishes and I love you always.

Note: And remember ...
When the world was handed a problem that can not handle you
own, do not try to solve the problem. However,
Put the problem in your prayers. I will solve your problem based on the SCHEDULE
I've set yourself. All your problems will I SURE
finish, but according to my schedule, not your schedule.

After all you put your problems in your prayers, do not
you think and worry about. Instead, focus to all
good things are happening to you now.

If you're stuck in the street, do not be angry, for still
many people in this world who never drove for the rest life.

If you are facing problems at work, think
that there are still many people who are unemployed for years without jobs.

When you are sad because family relationships, think about the people
who have never felt such love and be loved.

When you feel bored by the end of the week, think of those
people who have day and night without overtime to fend off
families & children.

If your car broke down and require you to walk,
do not be angry, think of disabled people who were eager to
feel walking on my own two feet like you now.

If you see a mirror with gray hair, do not
sad, because having hair is just a dream
for people who are in chemotherapy treatment.

When you contemplate the meaning of life in this world and contemplate what
purpose of this life?

Be thankful, because many people who do not have a chance
live long enough to contemplate their lives.

If you feel uncomfortable because of the affected
anger and disappointment of others, remember, the situation could become
far worse, namely a sense of anger & YOU
disappointment!

If you decide to forward this letter to others,
Thank you. You have touched their lives in
many things that you never imagined!

__________________

Jesus Christ
Jesus, thou hast seen my efforts
Jesus said: all of them have passed away

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